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[16 Dec 2005|01:36am] |
as i near the end of this semester's insanity, i am insane. my brain is so fried that i really think i am not myself. tomorrow at 1 it is going to give a big huge sigh of relief in which all the useless shit i shoved in it this last week will scamper away. and then i will be able to give thought to things that matter.
i'm ready to be home. except that i know that it won't be home. i know that things have changed so much since the day i left. plus, crap, i'm going to miss people from here. three weeks is a long time.
someone said to me congratulations miranda you can't feel secure unless you're doing a million things, unless you're not sitting still. it bothered me. for all of two hours. i guess i feel like, that's the way i am. and there's nothing wrong with it. i am a fairly active person, always running around. but when i am not working towards something, i get restless and neurotic. i like to have something out there that i can devote today to, to feel like i'm actually going somewhere in life. this person is the opposite. basically thinking in terms of the next few hours. what can satisfy me in the next few hours, i have money let's spend it, i have nothing to do, i'll smoke a cigarette and go to sleep. which is cool too, just don't tell me that i'm a raging, overactive, overachiever.
why do people get so much pleasure from spreading information. about other people, wether true, interesting, personal or unneccessary? i mean. talk about something more important and yours to talk about. why is there this endless need to discuss every detail of everyone else's sexlife. virgin? number? skill?
we don't really want to hear about. let's hear your opinions. and not about other people please.
such mixed feelings about being but regardless, away i go.
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[10 Dec 2005|11:52am] |
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my life is to study and to sleep.
but, within one week i will be done with finals, packed to go home, playing ultimate and partying, so i will be okay.
last night, we were studying at espresso art and there were obnoxious boys playing pool and annoying the hell out of me and adria made my night by saying, "boys, i don't why you date them". i made her day by saying i was seriously considering being a lesbian.
seriously, as i watch people around me aching over boys, i just want to shoot all males.
i'm ready to be home.
4 of 7 finals still left to go and then i will be a carefree soul.
everyone must know that i am going to be thoroughly enjoying this christmas break.
bon nadal.
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[26 Nov 2005|11:32pm] |
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i don't know about this sudden urge to keep in touch with my live journal... maybe it's because i no longer spend so many hours on the telephone. the is a replacement.
i talked to bryan today. fabulous.
i have good karma. so mayn times i have narrowly avoided trouble. the most recent case is the limbo party i was at. frisbee boys and some of us girls were just having a chill pre thanksgiving evening, when the cops invaded. i walked past them several times getting my stuff and then walked out. they broke up the evening. they let all the drivers go and we all drove drunk, quickly, away from the party. then they gave two people who were walking home mips after making them wait 30 minutes for the breathalyzer to come. it's super infuriurating. and they redtagged the house. god, go crash one of the 800 frats not a little frisbee limbo party.
i wish i was cool and knew where my credit card was so i could redeem all my free songs on itunes.
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[25 Nov 2005|10:17pm] |
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i'm enjoying me downtime. i had a wonderful thanksgiving dinner with nice people and returned to my dorm to spend several hours cleaning. on the way home, we stopped to visit two golden retriever sisters. they came from the same family which was abusive. it was by far the most heart wrenching thing i have seen. dogs are devoted, unconditionally loving animals. especially two year old golden retrievers. this dog would not move from the corner of the office. she wouldn't look at you if you petted her or spoke to her. i had to put her on a leash and coax her out of the room because she was starting to just go to the bathroom without moving. she was the most traumatised animal i have ever seen. i thought dog's faces were permanently smiling. this dog refuted those beliefs. she just had the saddest, scaredest eyes i have ever seen. i am an animal lover as well as the most unviolent person ever. but i wanted to go torture sierra (the puppy)'s previous owners. i was so infuriated at this sight. then i came back to the dorm and there was this kid eating pumpkin pie with whipped cream and drinking sparkling cider all by himself. he offered me some, but since i was stuffed with multiple kinds of pie already i had to decline. it was also kind of sad to me. and my family doesn't even really go all out for thanksgiving. we're always up in the mountains skiing. i don't know, it was an interesting thanksgiving day.
i have started listening to mitch hedberg on my ipod while i run. it's slightly embarrassing because i have definitely been seen running and giggling. today i was running past a lady and struggling to restrain myself.
i have talked to so many people lately from afar. it's really good. i definitely talked to carla and she explained how she bitched sam out over im. that was pretty humorous to me. she rocks. all around. she makes me so happy to talk to. and i'm so happy for her that brad will be there soon and she sounds so much better. gah but i wish i was there. so we figured out that she can come down and meet me in africa over the summer before she goes to dallas because africa is all of 11 kilometers away from spain. that would be soooo great. gah, i'm so excited.
i have spent the day rampaging about. i'm pretty excited. did some renovations. bought some sticky tak. tacked all my loved ones back up since they had fallen on the floor. watched say anything. much better this time around. claire and i watched it unsuccessfully last time.
i m so content here. i don't want to, uh, taunt. but it is 80 degrees here during the day. and there's a gazillion butterflies, hummingbirds, flowers and birds around. it's so incredibly beautiful...
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mmmm, ahead of me lie four days of relaxation. well, plus studying my ass off. but that will make finals slightly less stressful. plus, i'm taking care of a two month old kitten named Jack Daniels. :) very cute, restless, good campanionship.
tomorrow, i will be eating thanksgiving dinner with carolyn who i met last february and some other people at carolyn's house. after playing a rousing game of frisbee. but i will have a car and i will be independent. i hope to go hiking at least one morning.
last weekend i was in san diego. absolutely wonderful. so beautiful and fun. saturday night we went to the ultimate party and i definitely had a blast. the ocean was incredible close (while we were playing too). i worked very hard and started all six games. our team bonded so much and i think i'm still running on endorphins from those games. :)
i had long talks with christina about how much we miss the northwest. it was really good to remember that other people end up down here and wonder what they're doing but tucson is the most hippious of arizona. speaking of which, tomorrow, i'm going to the coop and the native plants store to pick up some nutrients. :)
just a random note, they have done experiments, putting spiders under the influence of caffiene, lsd, peyote, marijuana, etc and observed their webs. i thought it was pretty interesting...http://www.trinity.edu/jdunn/spiderdrugs.htm check it out if you're wierd like me.
now i'm going to go nap with great gusto.
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mmm a little updating needs to be happening i think. especially on this night i can't sleep. sam and i are over and that's all i have to say about that.
other than that, life has been great. i will be in san diego this weekend playing with scorch in the socal warmup which i am supremely excited about. then i have the hoasis tournament the weekend after finals (the weekend of the my birthday) so i should be home the night of my birthday. call me up we'll make plans.
mmm...school....i am getting fairly excited about everything. i just watched beyond borders with the ever so hot angelina jolie. inspirational. i decided i should do my chemistry homework so that i can be a doctor so that i can save people.
i am planning to spend the summer in tanzania. doing some research, a whole bunch of aids education, visiting orphans and most likely some traveling in the game reserves of Ngorongoro and Serengeti, the snowy peak of Kilimanjaro and the palm-fringed beaches of Zanzibar Island and maybe even visit Uganda. I'm still in the process of deciding if this is the best program for me but it's seeming more and more likely. yes, i will learn swahili.
next semester i am taking spanish and portuguese. i am excited and already planning to visit brazil after this year of portuguese.
as far as around here, last saturday, we drove down to mexico. to go out. all of 40 minutes. i was dd but i wanted to since i was not in the best humor and just wanted to sit. so we left around 9 and went out to some bars and got some food. it was entertaining to watch my friends drink and dance as well as watching the other customers in the club who were all mexican either drool or watch them condescendingly. i had a good time and we drove back over stopping for some breakfast on the way. a worthy celebration of claire's birthday.
i am a horrible wildcat but i am secretly rejoicing that the football games are finally over...
really i have just been sleeping pretty much all my spare time and trying to let my subconscious thoughts work themselves out. i don't know how futile that is.
my mother said i could come home for thanksgiving if i wanted now, but i declined. i wouldn't be able to see anyone. instead i will be spending five days hiking, spending some time alone and studying for the seven final exams that await me. ahhh. it should be some good time for myself and to hang out with those people living here in tucson.
i'm trying to thing of something worth any interest to another person...it's so wierd to me. we all have separated into our own little worlds. each of us is experiencing such supremely different situations right now.
as far as the end of sam and miranda, i feel like i am starting over. i am. i have to reconstruct my ego, heart, and being. but i think it's a good thing. after much despair, i am ready for this. i just have to stay awake and conscious and continue with all those things i love and plan all the trips i no longer feel bad about planning. i can cope and i am going to be so much stronger as a result.
this really is kind of an unorganized latenight entry but i am allowed after my usual month absence.
i'm going to go continue reorganizing my entire life now.
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[13 Oct 2005|12:22pm] |
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[20 Sep 2005|12:47pm] |
i've been in school for more than a month now.
oh my.
i'm very happy. i have definitely been very busy.
a little mini update...
i went camping last weekend with my Camp Wildcat. it was alright but i'm way more excited about going camping iwth kids. i don't bond well with groups of 75 people. but in two weeks i will be a counselor and claire's coming so it should be much better. on friday i was very sick and went to the doctor but she cured me so fast that by afternoon i was ready to go camping. i used that as my excuse to leave early and go to the decemberists saturday night. very, very good. plus i really liked the opening band from scotland. they played my song and it was just a good evening in good company. we then went to a friend's apartment where we just got stoned out our minds and woke up in the morning. that night i went to see the jazz society of tucson which was fabulous with some special highlights.
last night claire and i went to get our cartileges pierced. she got her first and then i got mine. during mine, six feet plus of claire dead fell to the linoleum floor where she tremored with her eyes rolled back in her head. i almost crappe dmy pants. she proceeded to past out several more times and the huge tatoo guy who was still shorter than her tried to keep her awake. we stayed there for quite awhile hysterically laughing and then i drove us home. but now we look hot.
what else has happened.....now i can't remember more than a few days ago.
oh we had our first two football games. i got very depressed as i realized that i was the Only person who had no interest in going to them fanatically except for my roommate.
frisbee is going really well we the boys team and girls team are going to mexico in a few weeks for a retreat to bond and camp and play frisbee so that should be really really fun.
i guess that's a general idea of what i've been doing. that plus crap for 19 credits of classes and trying to keep at least my side of the room from being taken over by my roommate's sprawl.
i'm enjoying myself thoroughly and am planning to go to st paul to visit sam in a few weeks and he will be cmoing out a month later to check out the school...
i must go play some frisbee, go to buffalo exchange and absolutely buy groceries
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[03 Sep 2005|10:11am] |
I’ve been in school for more than a week.
And wow, what a week it has been.
To start with, my roommate’s name is Lucy. Lucy is an English/Art major. She is vegetarian and doesn’t shave. I like her a lot. We’re not automatically best of friends but we’re compatible cohabitants. Which is more important with a roommate. We make dinners such as stir-fry and call the boys from the basement with our good smells to see and sample tofu for the first time.
The rest of the wing is also fairly easy going. Our only major issue so far has been religion especially the first few days with them going off to religious socials to eat ice cream made by the preacher and drink bottles of “Living Water”.
My classes have been fine so far. I didn’t take any AP so now I have to run around convincing people to let me into higher classes without any prerequisites. I am taking 19 credits and am officially a double major: Spanish Linguistics and ‘Ecology and Evolutionary Biology’. But it’s really not a bad schedule. I’m taking the only 300 level credits that I still need. So those are fairly easy all those one is for Hispanics who speak Spanish in the home. So I think I kind of stick out in the class full of Mexicans. But I like it better than the other one and I got over any qualms about that being thrown into Spain’s high school system.
For my Structure of Mind and Behavior, I will be participating in many hours of actual psychology experiments going on here at U of A. Sleep studies, MRIs and other tests. That’s exciting and counteracts the fact that there are 550 people in my class. We each have remote controlled clickers so we do many in class experiments and it’s very very easy and right next door.
Many of my teachers are grad students with accents so thick that I can’t understand my name in roll call but that’s alright too.
I have already frequented the frat party with the pole dancing area, fully staffed bar and 7 foot hookah. Also including a visit by the cops so I jumped out the window and we continue don to our next destination: Rocky Horror Picture Show. Film and live including a full script yelled and sang by the audience. They took the virgins (those who had not seen it at that location before and devirginized and sacrificed them through the wheel of sacrifice. This included everything from giving a hickey to faking an orgasm, licking whipped cream from another virgins belly button, pulling down zippers with teeth and passing around a double sided penis without using your arms. Intense.
And….I’m going to Mexico in a couple of hours! We’re just going to drive down, get some food on the beach, hang out all day tomorrow on the beach and drive back. Ahh, I’m so excited. Plus the water will just be really warm since it’s been simmering all summer. None of the four other girls have been to Mexico so I hope they don’t have expectations and can just relax and have a great weekend. And….I’m going for Thanksgiving! I’m going to spend the whole break sea kayaking in the Sea of Cortez, on Isla Tiburon. It’s where I go with my family each year, but it will be super fun to go with 7 other students.
Hm, Wednesday I started Ultimate which I absolutely love and my coach is a funny combination of Jordan and Marty. All Frisbee boys are the same. Thursday I went to a Slightly Stoopid concert which was really fun and later I hung out with some guys I met there. And then in two weekends I’m going camping for three day with a whole bunch of other people and later we’ll be taking underprivileged kids camping. It’s the perfect club for me.
Really I have just been having a really good time. I guess I shouldn’t have been surprised to find that people and attitudes are different here. Plus it superbly sucks to be another icky little new freshmen meeting and mingling and hanging out on campus because I don’t know where the great places are. Although they have pizza better than American Dream and I found a coffee shop that is way cool.
Finally, if someone would tell the little livejournal stupid how to post pictures, I will dazzle you all with the beauty of my campus, room, and friends.
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[21 Aug 2005|10:31pm] |
here i am in sunny az. i am having an absolute blast. my roommate and i get along really well. she is vegetarian and we are planning to cook a lot of food here and our refrigerator is already stocked with brocoli tomatoes and tofu. wonderful. tomorrow i start classes but i only have 9-10 and 11-1 so it shouldn't be too bad. i was going to run over to the street of the thrift shops and see if i could find a funky phone and coffee mug to finish the essentials in my room. my printer, bike, wardrobe and bathroom will be arriving this week and then i will be fully moved in. i just got back from a rousing game of frisbee on the mall (quad) it was good. it was interesting at the end of the game whne a guy from russia was harassed for smoking cigarettes. so far today i have gone to a bbq to mingle, skipped out on freshmen convocation to play pool with a really cute guy from turkey and a brit. my room is already plastered in pictures and already feels like home. i'm very happy. classes will be good at preventing the downward decline of my brain so they do have merit.
in short, i miss all my friends dearly as well as mr rufus and ms cleo plus my family but i am having a great time already and hope to maintain the optimism.
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[04 Aug 2005|12:56pm] |
i am finally really here. the first two day were basically the two stormiest days in barcelona´s history. ice thunder, lightning, inundation. but that has been resolved and i spent all yesterday on the beach. ahhhhhh. smoking, drinking (water) playing cards, paddle ball, talking taking pictures...blablabla etcetera. it was great. now i´m finally here.
so far i have been seeing everyone that i can. carla and i launched a pizza sangria party the first night that was obviously fun. woo. today i am meeting a ecuadorain friend from last year to hopefully hang out in the city center, i´m hoping to do some shopping, i missed sam´s birthday. oh! and i´m making brownies today. jaja. for my family. carla´s boyfriend is here and it´s kind of nice to have someone who´s way more otu of the loop than i ever was. viscious. i like him, he´s nicea nd tehy´re super cute. i ´m bringing home two cats. theya re the most affectionate things i have ever seen in my life. almost obnoxious but impossible to resist. hmmm. :) anyway,i must go swim in my pool.muahaha.
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[01 Aug 2005|06:04pm] |
i am in barcelona right this minute. i´ve been in minnesota for awhile which was really nice and relaxing. i just spent time waterskiing, swimming, kayaking, sailing, reading and taking saunas. wonderful. and i have just arrived in spain. ít´s really wierd i should have prepared myself better but i was so busy. i´m so happy to be here. carla and i have made big plans for these weeks :)
i miss sam a bit too much, he´s intruding on my vacations. it sucks since it´s only the beginning.
i would like to see you all between august 13 and 19. give me a call then okay.
i am planning to write on this while i am here as this is a time when it´s actually cool to keep a journal , for me.
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[19 Jun 2005|05:00pm] |
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just made chocolate raspberry cheesecake for my dad for fathers' day. he will love me for it. yesterday i went on an eight mile hike up and down mary's peak. wonderful. thunderstorms, clovers and rays of sunshine. yesterday i bought incense and went to the saturday market and my parents are gone all weekend so i had the house to myself. i have been trying to watch life aquatic the past week and i have never succeeded. i still have no signatures in my yearbook. damn. i've been talking with carla lots and planning our road tripping. i would like to take her backpacking too maybe around the base of middle sister. or hot springs. ooh. i don't really have anything of meaning to say but i feel like i should write to stay away from being antisocial. well, pasatelo bien, ei
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due to financial lacking i will definitely be going to university of arizona in tuscon. my parents just make too much money. but now that i have been thinking it over more i've decided that it will be wonderful. a big school with tons of undergraduate research opportunities in a crazy warm weather town. i can now picutre myself perfectly happy there. plus i just got another 2500 dollars. so, since they offer ful ride and i have a hefty college account i won't have to work and i can spend my summer traveling. so, i just talked to my host sister and shes coming july 7-23 and then we are returning to spain until i come back to go to college. we will also go to seattle and san fransisco. sinc ei won't have ot work and i can spend the money i've been making working. im so excited.
i've just been so happy and stress free lately. now that i have the futre figured out at least for a while i m even more laid back. plus i have not blazed for twelve days. yay.
i just had dolmas with bryan then we swang, went to the library, and went to borders. i got two more chuck palahniuk books and i am excited to go to bed tonight so i can read them. invisible monsters was amazing.
the last thing that i have realized lately is that there are hordes of amazing people at our school and i completely disregarded tehm until now. my faith in humans has been restored. im not so intent on leaving everyone behind any more. but i'm still going to do it :) i will miss tehm though. we must thoroughly enjoy the next few months.
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my vacation is over. in 9 hours i will be on my way home. snif. the easter bunny is still coming. we are waking up at 6 to honor it. but my easter basket already came with cotton blossom lotion from bath and body works and 40 dollars. yay. i got a prom dress, jewelry, henna tattoo and yummy food these last two days. today i spent the day at therennaisance faire with megan :) (shes getting a live journal hahaha) we watched belly dancing got beautifully tatttaooed and i talke dot sam who is washington. and we saw horsies. beatufil. this evening we had easter dinner and died eggs.
it's a little bit saad, one year ago i was in amsterdam and i headed back to wonderful weather and a fantastic life. i have to say that i am close to equally content though. im sure college will work out and i am very low sterss right now. it's amazing how much school work, college and scholarships affected me. i am stress free and very vacationed.
and basically we are almost done with school and then it will be a wonderful summer. and i am going to sapin and i will seee my beautiful lovely host sister. im so happy.
soon i will be home. in time for joyful stone soup :)
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I am back in Arizona after five wonderful days in mexico. im sad to be back because i definitely relaxed and absorbed some vitamin d in teh sun. it was a great break. tomorrow i m on the stupid hunt for a prom dress. megan ditched me unfortunately so i will be going with my cousin and mother i think. maybe i will go with megan to the renaissance faire on saturday. it is like thwe country fair but a little bit farther back in time. yum sword swallowers. then sunday afternnoon i will be back in corvallis in time for stone soup. yay. and tehn school starts again. oh crap. i think that i am going to intensify in frisbee again. i need something athletic in my life beseides running and playing tag with 6 yr old boys. plus if i go to reed i already plan on joining the frisbee team. i am in love with the guy who led me on my tour and hes on the frisbee team. great logic eh. but, i would enjoy it a lot more if sara did except i guess she does have track to attend to. oh well. it would still be good for me. less working more running around rolling in the mud. okay i am going to go write my host sis a n email and soak in the jacuzzi. ahhh
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why hello all
i figured out there is a computer in here so i am utilizing it for a few seconds to tell you all hello.
im having a fabuluous time we are staying in a huge condo right on the beach with 2 pools and 2 hot tubs. it is amazing. i am fried already but i have been spending my days running and walking on the beach playing frisbee and of course being in the sun. I can legally drink here but of course i m not going to get drunk with me family. it is nice hownver to drink a margarita while eating the chips and salsa. its also making me pretty embarassed to see all teh 18 yr olds who drive down here and act like idiots puking by 6 o clock.
but im in my own little world and loving it. hopefully this afternnoon i will go sea kayaking.
an di have seen dolphins. i love them.
ok i should go back to my book its calling me from the beach.
i love you all. muaka
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[19 Mar 2005|10:04am] |
BYE I love you all
call me and chat
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its st patricks day :) i get to wear jeans to wrk. that's pretty much the highlight of my day.
yesterday i recieved a letter notifying me that i have won one of 15 huge trustee scholarships to lewis and clark. that definitely just bumped it up the list. and a few days ago i was accepted to ucsanta cruz , so that's good too. i'm glad that someone else is worrying about college for me.
sam and i are together still. we watched when harry met sally last night a chick flick but i had never seen it before. i met his mom on tuesday. a little awkward but alright.
i am becoming exttrremely excited to go to mexico and megan and i are making big plans for prom dress shopping in the big city. in arizona, in the sun.
god, i'm so freaking happy lately. its amazing. i actually have hardly been depressed ata ll. im sure that the sun ahs somehitng to do with it. i m such a weather dependent person.
this is exactly why next week will be amazing.
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